thoughts on rebirth/ renewal /remembering

i was sitting here pondering the reawakening of nature...
it is mostly green, the buds have broken,& the leaves are unfolded & all shinny green & fresh....
yesterday when i woke i was feeling somewhat overwhelmed by some of the collective energies....
so i started cleaning my house to help create a shift of the energies...
& then the sun was calling so sweetly to me, so i went outside
to enjoy it.....
 spending the better part of the afternoon in the woods observing nature & my favorite cow moose.
i came home feeling happy & renewed & totally completely blessed by my experiences!!!!

recently my little grandson was visiting over his spring break.... he wondered about attending church, since he would be with me on a sunday.... so when sunday came, after sharing a lovely breakfast, i took him hiking....
& when we had made our way up the hillside & were sitting on a a big rock, with the trees all around, i asked him to close his eyes & take a deep breath, & just be quiet ..... i said... "listen, do you hear, can you feel.... creator source/God is all around"..... he opened his eyes ,with a big smile on his face.... & i said....'this is nana's church.....i told him he could talk to God & be with God the whole time....
i told him this is where i come to feel & hear God. he was smiling & told me he liked my church.

growing up i experienced so very many different things.....
there was alot i felt & saw in nature... after awhile, i realized most people did not experience or see the way i did....after sharing what i saw a few times, & being punished for it, i learned early on to keep these things to myself....
there were some very special adults in my life, that i feel were there on purpose to help & comfort me from some very heavy ugly things a child should never have to experience, yet sadly,unfortunately they still do....
some very special adults who showed me what love,kindness & nurturing really was about....
i saw many contradictions growing up.... i saw alot....
i choose to honor it all.... everything that happened, helped me become who i am today.... 
i will no be a victim.... & i choose to be more then a survivor, i prefer to rise & shine & thrive....

this day of easter sunday...can not come & go without the fond memories of
"the coloring of the eggs"
a ritual that took place in my childhood .... i loved every part of it....
perhaps it is because of the one who taught it to me, the one i experienced it with for so many years....
the one who touched my heart in so very many ways during my childhood....
the one who i lovingly named my daughter after....
the memories are real & beautiful & cherished!!
i used to think it was because it was all so magical..... sure it was magic...
the easter egg hunts.... the little treasures in the garden.... the gathering & celebrating.... it was magic!!!.....
& as i look back all these many years later....
i see with clarity what the magic really was....
it was LOVE  pure & real...
it was the experience of LOVE, unconditional love & total acceptance!
the realization of knowing i was safe to be who i was with this person.

i did my best to carry on this tradition with my own children....
did my best to show them the magic & the love....
i continue to choose the magic... to sprinkle it all about~~
i continue to do my best to be that love, that unconditional love & acceptance....

& so here's to "the coloring of the eggs"
here's to the magic...
here's to the rebirth of nature...
here's to the rebirth of self....
here's to unconditional love & acceptance


brightest radiant blessings & warmest loving hugs, earthdeva/molly