this mornings thoughts

yesterday was the first day of spring~
the vernal equinox.... spring in the northern hemisphere & autumn in the southern hemisphere~
for me spring.....ostara~ new beginnings.... new birth.... a fresh start~~

equinox, all about balance.... so i spent time yesterday ""equalizing"" & it was a good way to honor
the energies of the day.... the shifting of the seasonal wheel~~

the balancing of the light & dark ... the day & night
all the elements in balance.... water, earth, air, fire, either~~
body & soul
heart & mind
thoughts & actions
the doing & the being
logic & emotion
masculine & feminine
childlike & elder
ignorance & wisdom
organized & hoarded clutter
the old & the new
 
balancing the seemingly opposite qualities... because after all we do contain it all~~
i kept seeing this old fashioned scales in my minds eye....
thinking about all the Libras in my life....
mentally placing things on that scale to see how they all balanced out....
choices, options, directions, thoughts & feelings....

this past winter i was almost hermit like....
tucked in pretty tight for the most part....
spending my time being still, observing, & listening, sorting thru it all
mending my own brokenness
i now feel myself pushing out of the self created cocoon....
remembering my wholeness....
more then ready for the sunshine & warm....
ready for the colors
ready for nature to dress her naked bones.....

i received a beautiful gift yesterday... totally unexpected!! a blessing!!!
& in so many ways it was also
this amazing sign/message from creator source & the universe....
& i am filled with gratitude....
over the years in my experiences i have discovered the importance of alignment...(timing)
it all happens when it is meant to.... when everything lines up in the most perfect way....
often we block a flow by standing in our own way....
sometimes we just need to be still to just be & allow the rest of life to go on by us as we observe....
this is a challenge for some folks... it is the full & complete awareness>>>>>
that we do no control another,that 'we are only responsible for ourselves & our own actions & reactions....
yet also the reminder we are never alone.... creator source is a constant presence!
there is that perfect & pristine balance of all things...
& then the shift & flow~~~
trusting creator source & the universe....
& just doing my best;>>>>>
even if in the moment, my best is being the reclusive hermit.....
or  perhaps the ranting profane radical that i sometimes embody....
doing it in the best possible way..... it's all good 
i am  an emotional being.... i can be logical & practical, mostly i am emotional....
it is finding a balance that works for me in my own way.....
giving myself permission to be my '''realself""  to be authentically me!!
to shine my own unique light thru my open heart with as much love as i am able in any given moment~~
& so it is  & so it is~~
brightest blessings, & warmest spring time hugs.... earthdeva/molly