footnotes on the path of life as a thriver,
i was a victim
i was a survivor
i chose to become a thriver!
i have experienced many things in this go round on earth!
both beautiful as well as the awful ugly bad shit!
ALL of my experiences have assisted in making me who i am this day,
ALL of my experiences helped shape me as a person.
ALL of my experiences have offered me a perspective of how it can be.
so each moment of each day,
i get t choose;
how to be
how to react or no react
the words to say or to be silent & still
once when i was a victim in pain about past happenings..
someone said to me, that it was part of what made me me,
at 1st i was offended... he continued further to say,
i was a good person, with a kind & loving heart, & what had
happened to me was all part of that... in that moment...
my soul took me by the hand & led me to a higher perspective...
& offered me a different view, & more clarity....
in that moment i traveled the path of life...
that journey took me from victim to thriver!!!
once when i was living in survivor mode, i was told my heart looked like a lovely shinning green crystal.... & i realized, i had hardened my heart to survive all the hurt & pain... i had blocked it off from feeling....
& in that moment i made a promise to never again harden my heart... my heart is wide open & flowing with love...
this i did for myself, because i saw & felt the difference.
in that moment i made the choice to release myself from just surviving only....realizing there was far more to life & living...
i made the choice to be all that i was meant to be...
Seeing & feeling in the unique way that is only mine....
i promised myself i would thrive in the best way i possibly could!!
my life experiences are part & parcel of my being...
we are all capable of rising above the hurt & pain,
true some days it will be more of a challenge..
some days it will be enough to feel the pain,
to feel the fear... i have learned by doing this i am able
to push thru to the other side, & there is another side believe me!!
when on the other side, i often looked back & thought to self...
ummm, what was i so afraid of? fear holds us back.
i made the choice to live differently!
we all make choices each & every day, every moment...
the path of life...
the path i follow is mostly spiritual,mostly creative,
close to nature, & one of love....this is my path, my choice.
others paths are uniquely their own as well....
doing/choosing a different route may be just what your soul
is requiring of you.... be still & listen...
sharing in love!
our memories are our own.....interestingly an event attended by several individuals, will be remembered by each in a different way.... our life experiences reflect/affect our perspective on all we do, see, feel, remember.
to be estranged from someone who once was a huge part of your life can be experienced in as many different ways by just as many different folks.... i am one of those folks...
i often speak of clearing our energetic fields/auras of unhealthy hooks, cords & attachments...
of detaching from unhealthy relationships.... of the importance of loving & forgiving our-self first....
because if we are unable to offer our self love, acceptance & forgiveness first, we are really truly unable to offer those things/ those gifts to anyone else.
is it possible to detach from an unhealthy relationship & still love from a distance.... i believe it is...
i have had to do this in my life on different occasions with different individuals...
it has no been with out immense heart ache & pain on my part...
there has been a loss of shared experiences....the company, the companionship......
& yet the love i feel & the memories of the good times are mine, & no one can take them away from me....
i am in no way attempting to be a martyr in this.... just sharing what it is i feel on my side, in my shoes.
there is always more then one side to a story.... this is a for sure!!!
do/did i welcome an opportunity to heal these relationship... yes of course... absoulutely!!!
i have been unsuccessful in my attempts with this particular one (that is on my heart today) to this point in time....
yet no doors have been closed on my side, no bridges burned....
i remember other relationships were i pulled away to self protect at different times in my life....
i am unsure if it is my personality make up, being an empath, having such a clear spiritual path/directive
that this takes place... or perhaps it is my own unwillingness to deal with bullshit.... or that taking on anothers pain & grief, becomes to heavy to carry, or perhaps it is seeing the situation in a bigger picture kind of way, when the other is unable or unwilling......who knows....
i do know how often i tried to fix it.... did my best.... yet we can only repair ourselves, & our stuff....
i do know i would like everyone to be happy, & to know they are loved....
i remember the 1st time i realized this is exactly what creator source wanted for us as well...
to be happy & to know we are loved.... that is all.... simple yet quite profound!!!
in these relationships that i detached/stepped away, i realized if they thought they were happier without me in their life.... i could be big enough & i loved them enough, i would be the one to remove myself...
so they could find the peace & happiness they felt i was keeping from them.....
i do know relationships are where we learn/remember our biggest life lessons!!!
& the parent child relationship is the biggest class room of all!!!!!.....
do i have the answers.... no.... tis no my place...
i do however have love, & know LOVE & i know how powerful & healing love is.
& so i let all the pain go, i have no control over another.... never did, never will....
when my heart is full of the ache.... i release it to the universe... to blessed creator source....
send it out surrounded by love..... & trust it to be healed....
yes estrangement is strange ...it has as many different faces as the people who experience it....
& thru it all...... only love is real~~~
so diese Worte mit großer Liebe und alles Gute zum Geburtstag SendenWorte der Liebe sendet, um das Universum zu meinem ersten Sohn geboren <3
brightest blessings to ALL & warmest loving hugs, earthdeva/molly
WOW i 1st shared this 8 years ago!!
footnotes >>>> who sews??
along the path of life... we all wear clothes these days....
whether we make them or buy them new or used....
whether they are handmedowns or ups....
garments of one sort or another cover our bodies....
like the leaves that cover the trees & plants through the spring summer & autumn...
until they undress & stand naked through the winter... where we
gaze upon the beauty of their bones & structure....
we all clothe ourselves in some manner & fashion~
many of us, have a unique style in how we dress.... we allow our personalities
to present themselves in our garb....
i sew, i like to sew!
i love working with my hands.
whether it is in the soil or with trees & plants
or painting, writing or drawing,
healing work as well....
sewing & needle crafts bring me a unique kinda joy....
i remember the first stitches i ever took....
big clumsy... a running stitch...in unbleached muslin....
i can still see them quite clearly!!!! :)
i was given the needle thread & fabric... to keep me quite & occupied
while the elders were busy visiting....i was 4 yrs old....& i was hooked! :)
i had some amazing seamstresses in my life,
there was my Gram, who was a major perfectionist, & made beautiful tailored garments!
there was my Maggie, who lovingly tutored me, & could move the peddle of her treadle sewing machine
so fast it made me spin!
then there was my mom... who liked to collect fabric....
a home ec teacher who scared the crap out of me.....
& then there was my own inquisitive nature that just allowed me to do it myOWN way
much to the displeasure of Gram....;)
in my youth i wanted to be a fashion designer.... even started in that direction in college...
made myself monies in highschool patching & decorating other peoples blue jeans....
sewed my own clothes & that of my kids....
recently... i am revisiting this love of mine...
lots of thoughts & ideas come as i stitch the seams together....
i love the feel & texture of the fabrics...
love the bright array of colors!!!
i find tremendous inspiration walking through a fabric store or a garden or the woods
or a nursery....these places all inspire the artist within me
the other day, totally enjoying designing on the fly a couple of things for my beautiful daughter...
& i have a bevy of fabric picked out by little princess Natasha to make in to
skirts & jumpers....
sewing... stitching together two or more things to create something entirely new~
so so sew... stitching together.... as i journey forward... always in love, hugs, earthdeva/molly
this day I am thankful for my wonderful family (by blood & thru friendship)~ ♥
this day I am ever thankful and grateful for love~ the breath of life~mother earth~ the green growies~& for all the kingdoms of creator,
for without them ,my life would not be~~~ ♥
today I am ever thankful for the melody in the breezes,
for the symphony in the winds for the heavenly chorus,
for the music of the spheres, I am grateful for sweetness &
purity in the songs my grandchildren sing to me,
the rhythms of the seasons, elements &
mother earth for the concert of my life & in my heart~~
this day I am ever so grateful for children,
for small new humans, for innocence,....
& the wisdom of their precious fresh newness and perspective on love,
life and the world & all that is in it~~~
today I am so very thankful for ~everything~
yup even the bad,
cause it assists me in appreciating the good even more so~~~
whatever happens in my life,
I choose to see it from all perspectives, to find good in it, this is always possible~
today I am so very grateful for the waters of my life~
our lives~ the rains & moisture which is much needed,
it's part of the season~ part of cleansing & release~ part of the ebb & flow~
part of the me that is all of us~ quenching the thirst of body mind &
spirit~~ ever grateful for ~water~
today i am grateful!
today i am thankful!
found this in my Facebook memories
me; so today is the beginning of when winter starts to end..
him; you mean it is the last day of winter??
me; no, just winter starts to decline today,
it is when it starts to begins to end
him; (calculating dates...
winter solstice 12/21 spring equinox 3 /22)
no it's not half way.... can't be....
me; well it is traditional....
today marks the day winter starts to end
him: so like the down hillside....
me; well ok yeah
him;(calculating dates again...
winter solstice 12/21 spring equinox 3 /22)
no it's not half way can't be!!....
me; k.... i don't know the numbers between those dates off the top of my head....it is like the downhill side ....
him; shakes head at me (adds the look)
me; LOL k....just be happy ok.... today winter starts to end...
we are by nature already spiritual & infinite~
the shift comes in recognizing we are already complete~
open to Divine Source~Life Force `we are all one~
LOVE~flow with the fullness of that knowing~
sooooo 3 weeks, 21 days to make or break a habit!!!
change how you look/think/speak about something...Anything!
how about we all make a conscious effort to make changes in
how think, react, speak, see something!
keeping in mind the fact that we are as individuals far more powerful
then we realize....
& as individuals joining together as a combined, collective unit joining together as the one/whole that we already are!
suppose we see, think, feel, know our earth mother is healed & whole.
that our air is pure & pristine, that our water is pure & pristine!
that we eat food as near the source & as in whole form as possible.
that we bless all that we eat & drink.
that we bless all that is around us
that we hourly, daily, weekly bless our air, food & water.
that we daily honor & acknowledge the trees & soil & water
& all the animals of our earth.
that in those moments we see the imbalance of the air, earth or water...
we send love stream strong pure &
sacred to heal to wholeness whatever the imbalance may be....
examples: seeing 'chem trails" as LOVE!!!
seeing & knowing our water is pure & pristine!!!
that in those moments we see discord, imbalance, dis-ease, dis-harmony
for another human or animal friend....
we focus strong clear intentions of loving compassion
& healing wholeness to the situation & all those involved.
by shifting our personal intention & focus we create new...
by doing this as a united group we strengthen
& multiply & magnify the focus & intention
& we co~create the new & step into it with greater ease~~
we can do this!!! 3 wks of focused clear intentions!!! join me!
brightest blessings & huge warm loving hugs, earthdeva/molly
dark & light & the sunshine seems to becoming a bit of a theme
for me this January 2019... so just gonna follow & see where it goes
Pause & Ponder:::>
"Eating real wholesome food is nothing to take for granted.
It is past Time for our society,
to shift gears big time regarding what we as individuals, choose to nourish our bodies,minds & beings with!!!!
When each of us takes that seriously.
When we step up to the plate so to speak.
We offer that same opportunity for those around us to change. Time to honor all that goes into how,what,where when we feed
& nourish ourselves!"
For those of us who make our way via our art, our craft::::>
all of us who make our way via our art, our craft, our creativity...
& for all of us who do their best to be self sufficient
may we make our way with joy ease & grace!!
... may we always be inspired
may our intentions be bold & clear!!
may we thrive!!!
may we be prosperous in every way!
may our creativity be abundant
may our products be blessed to find the right home
may all we require, find us in the moment....
may we know clarity
may we know goodness & joy
may we know Love!!!
may we be blessed beyond our wildest imaginings in 2019....
& so it is & so it is!!!
i did a new photo shoot yesterday &
this morning found out there is an area
Art Show titled Dark & Light
i will be entering...
kinda love how i follow my nudges!!!
January it's often cold & the days are still kinda short..
we all require that Vit D infusion!
we all enjoy the warmth of those golden rays!
sunshine just makes us happy!!
so during the month of January i'll be
sharing photos & images of the glorious SUN!!!!
so here comes the Sun...
shine on shine on so bright!!! ~~
oh yes:::> google image searches
molly rice ~~aka earthdeva