just some thoughts~~

i look at the dates.... i am surprised it has been this long between postings...
the time seems to slip away, somewhere.... maybe it is with all the missing socks
the dryer swallows.... or out in the ether's were i seem to have misplaced it....
i post alot on Facebook, when perhaps this space is where those postings belong....
who knows....   i will be the first to admit.... i am uncertain.
altho i have been told numerous times folks are glad i am on fb.

i have been busy 'adjusting' to the changes taking place for me in my  current job situation....
& as always recognize part of my "light worker/way shower" role is knowing current changes
for earth & humanity play out in my own life..... often in bigger ways than i may be immediately aware of
when i sit to ponder it all.... there are so many thoughts....
i fully realize change is constant companion on life's journey....
we always hope change is good... yet there is so much more that comes with change....

with-in my ponderings, were all these thoughts of patterns & programs,
the daily routines, rituals, yes i suppose habits as well,
that require our adjustments when change occurs....
whether the change is welcome, unexpected, planned, or something we are thrust
into the middle of....  with change comes alot of adjustments....
things that you might no even think about....
like feelings, & emotions,attitudes, reactions.... just to name a few.
i find myself becoming extremely emotional about the oddest things....
i find it interesting my reactions as i release 'ownership' of things i helped create.....
i have found myself addressing personal issues of what i have discovered is grief....
actually alot of grief!!!!.... 
so many personal issues i am having to deal with, & because
they belong to me; when i have attempted to discuss them with someone,
i stop to look & listen to myself prior to sharing, & then decide to no even go there....
i saw a statement, unsure who originally said it, >>>>
" never push a loyal person to the point they no longer care"
i have always been a conscientious employee....
just part & parcel of my make up & work ethic.... 
i have found myself; thru this whole situation of transition with the job;
seemingly at constant odds with myself!!!
how i have always done something,
how i would do it were i still working for the previous owner/management (which i was a huge part of)
how i fundamentally know it should be done......
& then mentally comparing it to how the new ownership handles things....
i see the huge differences, & realize my time with this job/company are limited....
i think about things, like;
what you put out comes back to you...
to always do your best...
to be truthful....
to live with integrity!
basic common sense type of approaches to life & business....
there are so many things about the new ownership i do no want to be associated with....
it is no who i am at all!
learning to look at the whole thing with a sense of humor, warped or however
i continue to do my job in the best possible way that i can....
to do it with as much grace as possible!
i am adjusting daily to change.... on so many levels!!!!

today the wind is blowing, from time to time some big strong gusts!
& i smile i know the winds of change are present!  
as i type this the winds picked it up another notch, & i heard thunder....
do i know the answers.... no .....yet i am ok ....
i totally trust source & spirit are ever present with me, & it's all good....
change is part of our life....
to no change one becomes stagnate & dies on different levels.....
when change comes, & it always will....
even if it is a good change a welcome change
just realize & be aware,
that there is the whole transition & adjustment .....
also allow yourself time to experience the grief & perhaps anger as well....
as much as we all would like for change to flow with joy ease & grace...
it is ok to admit to self & others that perhaps you are having a challenge with the changes,
transition & adjustments.... & allow yourself the space you may require however that may
look or feel.

so til later.....
brightest blessings & warmest loving hugs in the midst of the wild winds of change!!
earthdeva/molly