just some thoughts~~

as i write this in the wee hours of Sunday morning....
Friday's beautiful full harvest moon is lighting my dining room space.
the full moon energies have been very empowering & assisting me
in accomplishing a somewhat challenging task, & i am nearly there!!
i fell asleep reading, & woke to the light of the moon~~~ 

i have been a bit over taxed w/  the current 'day job'
during the past couple of yrs....long story short....
the company i work for, in a position i always felt
the universe created especially for me, was sold.....
it is still in the midst of transition w/the new owner,
as am i, & i have been challenged to the max in adapting to the new situation,
owner & his business practices, style & manner.
Everything is different.... i have remained because of my loyalties to the company
& for the years i spent helping to build it up to the place it was when it was sold.

with all the transitions in my job & the effects in my personal life the past 2yrs,
my Arborist Certification expired this past June,
because i did not get all my CEUs (continuing education units)
30 total are required in a 3 year cycle...i had 10.
after much ,mental & emotional debate on my part about letting it go or keeping it....
big part of it was not wanting my new boss(who is creating so much grief for me) to control or "own" my certification & use it & not compensate me(long story!!!)
at any rate.. i remembering how hard i had originally worked to receive the Certification & what a huge accomplishment it was for me....i decided to keep it, which meant filing for an extension & explaining my 'story"  i was able to get an extension till 10-28 & even paid extra to get the testing materials delivered early....
& then having them not arriving on time!!! only added to the mental stress   LOL....
so letting go & just trusting!!!!
i finally  received the testing materials & began taking the tests Wed (10-16)
wow!!!  ALL the articles & tests to get the required 20+ CEUs......(ordered a couple extra just in case)
lots of head time!!!! studying & reading & test taking  kinda intense, plus the pressure of the time line!!!
gratefull to have taken enough tests to acquire 20 CEUs at this point,
altho the tests still needed to be sent in & graded to see if i achieve all the credits i need!!
(why i am taking a couple extra just to be sure!! )....
ISA is working with me, even tho the deadline is the 10-28, they have been being great about supporting me!!!! going do this all weekend & hopefully have the 20 CEUs/tests to send overnite on Monday.

and yet at this moment i am reminded there is a time & season for everything...
& change is good, it has all been good;
the learning & remembering & growing & healing to wholeness
through it all, the smooth flows & the chaos & struggle!!!
& coming to a place of recognizing it is time to shift gears & create something new for myself!
& i will be ok, & i trust the universe

Thursday was my beloveds birthday.... we celebrated  that night out on the property by the tipis, under the moon with a big camp fire, several friends & just good enjoyable time!!!  offered me a much needed break in the midst of all the head time!!!!  Friday was the job & more study & test taking   Saturday i got up at 6 & started the studying & testing..... it won't be light for several more hours, yet i am wide awake.... tidying my homespace & doing chores. i have 2 more articles & tests to complete.... it's Sunday.... it's all good, & life is wonderfull!!!

reflecting on all of this, i am gratefull for the choice i made to do what i needed to do to re-instate my Arborist Certification!!! Thankful for the challenges i have put my brain skills through!! I LOVE the trees, & promised them i would be their voice~~  I am totally trusting the universe to create a new position & day job for me!! 
i am ready to create a new story & be off on a new adventure~~
and so it is~~ and so it is~~

warmest loving hugs & brightest blessings~ earthdeva/molly