just some thoughts...

When i allow self to flow with ease, to flow with joy into the grace of
nature, the grace of the earth, i come to a place of peace & calm.
i find comfort there....
i realize i have talked about my understanding of wild before....
does it seem like a contradiction to be finding peace in the wild...
are peacefull & wild opposites.... & how can i find one in the other?
find it interesting i find more peace &
harmony in the 'wild places" of the earth,
find it comfortable as well as comforting, & it feels like coming home.....
you know that feeling....
it is like a big huge loving hug embraces every aspect of your being...
perhaps it is my natural state of being, to be in those 'wild spaces'....
& yet i also love my sacred home space. so this is my balance.
my wild self in a place of harmony with the 'wilds' of nature,
away from the town centers where folks gather, mix, mingle, & commerce.
i sense i could easily become like the stories of the old woman,
who folks traveling thru the woods come upon.... not that i would be wicked or evil or mean or cruel.... just that i could see myself living alone in the woods....
learning the ins & outs of nature, the rhythms & flows....speaking with & listening to the wisdom of the nature beings.....
until the time i would become totally one with the earth,
returning to the soil & nourishing the roots of the plants & trees...
becoming the leaf & bark & moss.... my bones becoming stones...
please no misunderstandings...as i do like folks, love to share... more one on one or smallish groups....no much into the crowds... 
recently i have been observing the beaver on the property ..... find them to be amazing little engineers ..... & at the same time so very devastating to the trees i love, the same with the wee little porcupines... there is this whole contradiction that comes upon me.....
  i get it that it is all part & parcel to the cycles of nature....
& understand it is way to a balance....
my part in the accepting of this natural occurring patterns,
well, i am still in the process.
spring is here.... the equinox celebrated in my own way....
i am smelling & feeling spring in the air....
seeing it as the buds swell & the colors flush the stems of the trees, & the little plants sprout up thru the soil & dead growth from the past season....
i am more then ready to feel my hands in the soil,
to feel bare feet upon mother earth....
i am more then ready!!!
health issues created challenges for me thru the winter season....
& yet perhaps it was the only way my being could get me
& my physical body to be still....
to allow myself to really rest & heal & mend fully.
i am more then ready to come forth from my sacred home....
my space offered me shelter....
ready to be out on the earth, in nature once again.
i think of the waking of those animals who hibernate.....
crawling out of the winter shelters.... 
yeah i suppose it is a bit like that.  makes me smile!
i know there is a bear in the woods on the back of the property,
we saw the signs a plenty....
so i have not been into my woods to much lately....
proceeding cautiously.....
as i will proceed cautiously back into my life & all the many things i feel nudged to do....
brightest blessings, & warmest loving hugs, earthdeva/molly