I have discovered several things about myself as I have been embracing my ~Elder~dom”
doing some self reflecting…. I prefer easing into my day…. Whatever time it starts… whether it is 3AM or anytime after. I love to take my time & gradually ease into the day. I love to move slowly into the day…. Looking back, I realize how often I was awakened abruptly, before I was ready…. When I was being rushed, pushed, shoved into the day by self or another or perceived demands of my being & 'time” I spent too many days diving in head first before I had time to really greet the day, & get to know it, & how best we would work/flow/journey together…. I spent too many days rushing in before I was truly awake, or had taken/made the time to connect fully with myself, the day, nature… & really it was all part & parcel of my conditioning… following the patterns & programs & expectations that had been dumped on me demanded of me. & so I reluctantly followed suit, altho it did not feel like it fit correctly… I pushed myself…. To do it a certain way, until I could no longer conform…. It no longer made sense… I stilled I quieted, I listened… I allowed myself to truly be my self! I like myself much better, like who I am when I do not push myself! so now knowing the difference i realize & embrace what for me feels correct for my being/heart/soul! I look at where I once was… who I once was… much healing & growth on the path of mine… I am grateful for it all!! through all of it I became who I am… I like who I am… I love myself. So easing into the day… hows it look, hows it feel… first it is my own… we are each our own & what works or is “right” for one may no t for another… today is a good example… there was some rain yesterday… temps are on the cool side for July. There is a quietness about this day, altho I can hear the wind blowing & see it in the trees, it is not blustery, it seems/feels calm…. So quiet & calm… & I am hearing/sensing this from my body as well, I am preferring to lay low today to allow myself to rest...time to ponder, to wonder, to contemplate what comes into my flow…. No pushing self these days… no rushing…. Pushing & shoving can be seen as rude… & I just will no longer allow myself to be rude to myself!!! :) works better for my overall health & well being… & seriously what purpose did it ever serve??? is going slowly into the day being lazy?? NO! Ask yourself just who's voice is that in your head. I know I accomplish a lot in my days… & I am deserving of the quiet moments, the moments of stillness & rest… it is one of the ways I nourish & nurture my soul & my being!!! Each day has a flow, an energy, recognizing this, & adjusting our own flows creates a harmony to the natural rhythm of nature & life…. So today is a slower day… & it is good, I am content, I am even happy. So you may wonder…...Are there ever days that seem off?? absoulutley… & when those days come, I realize it is perhaps not so much the day, as it may be me… those days I just do my best… those days I MAKE time to be in nature… those days I tend to avoid being out & about in the rush of society, or around alot of folks…. Those days I realize it is best to make no attempts at making/creating/or doing projects…. Those days I may do laundry… or put my hands in the soil & garden. & there are times I find I am redoing… there are mis-takes… so I find I am doing more deep breathing…. Those days just are what they are. “it is what it is” & tomorrow comes... Tomorrow, will be different, each day is…. i can have plans, however I allow myself to be flexible… always a good thing to be!!! plans are not set in stone…. It makes them to hard/challenging to accomplish I do know I will allow myself to flow into it, & it will be what it's meant to be, & I will adjust to it…. What about the fast pace race….ahhh yes been there, done that, let it go…OH….& I was good at it….. however it is no t for me… does no t mean others may no t thrive in it…. To each their own…. As it is meant to be….Days come & go…. Part & parcel of the nature of the cycle…. Easing into the flow…. I find is the way I prefer to go… it Is the discovery in the midst of the journey! brightest blessings, & loving hugs, earthdeva/molly
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