just some thoughts.... some times life is a challenge

3-22-1976     Nurenberg Germany....

our memories are our own.....interestingly an event attended by several individuals, will be remembered by each in a different way.... our life experiences reflect/affect our perspective on all we do, see, feel, remember.
to be estranged from someone who once was a huge part of your life can be experienced in as many different ways by just as many different folks.... i am one of those folks...

i often speak of clearing our energetic fields/auras of unhealthy hooks, cords & attachments...
of detaching from unhealthy relationships....  of the importance of loving & forgiving our-self first....
because if we are unable to offer our self love, acceptance & forgiveness first, we are really truly unable to offer those things/ those gifts to anyone else.

is it possible to detach from an unhealthy relationship & still love from a distance.... i believe it is...
i have had to do this in my life on different occasions with different individuals...
it has no been with out immense heart ache & pain on my part...
there has been a loss of shared experiences....the company, the companionship......
& yet the love i feel & the memories of the good times are mine, & no one can take them away from me....
i am in no way attempting to be a martyr in this.... just sharing what it is i feel on my side, in my shoes.
there is always more then one side to a story....  this is a for sure!!!
do/did i welcome an opportunity to heal these relationship... yes of course... absoulutely!!!
i have been unsuccessful in my attempts with this particular one (that is on my heart today) to this point in time....
yet no doors have been closed on my side, no bridges burned....

i remember other relationships were i pulled away to self protect at different times in my life....
i am unsure if it is my personality make up; being an empath, having such a clear spiritual path/directive
that this takes place... or perhaps it is my own unwillingness to deal with bullshit.... or that taking on anothers pain & grief, becomes to heavy to carry,  or perhaps it is seeing the situation in a bigger picture kind of way, when the other is unable or unwilling......who knows....
i do know how often i tried to fix it.... did my best.... yet we can only repair ourselves, & our stuff....
i do know i would like everyone to be happy, & to know they are loved....
i remember the 1st time i realized this is exactly what creator source wanted for us as well...
to be happy & to know we are loved.... that is all.... simple yet quite profound!!!
in these relationships that i detached/stepped away, i  realized if they thought they were happier without me in their life.... i could be big enough & i loved them enough, i would be the one to remove myself...
so they could find the peace & happiness they felt i was keeping from them.....
i do know relationships are where we learn/remember our biggest life lessons!!!
& the parent child relationship is the biggest class room of all!!!!!.....

do i have the answers.... no.... tis no my place...
i do however have love, & know LOVE & i know how powerful & healing love is.
& so i let all the pain go, i have no control over another.... never did, never will....
when my heart is full of the ache.... i release it to the universe... to blessed creator source....
send it out surrounded by love..... & trust it to be healed....

 yes estrangement is strange ...it has as many different faces as the people who experience it....
& thru it all...... only love is real~~~


so diese Worte mit großer Liebe und alles Gute zum Geburtstag SendenWorte der Liebe sendet, um das Universum zu meinem ersten Sohn geboren <3

brightest blessings to ALL & warmest loving hugs, earthdeva/molly