i had a rough day..... one of those really challenging kinda days.... wanted to share this article i wrote a few years ago....


There are some days on the path of life

when the winds of change howl so loud, and blow so hard that you wonder what on earth they are bringing with them.

There are times on the path of life when {HAPPY}

just doesn't cut it for you anymore,

and you wonder why that is so.

There are moments, days & sometimes weeks,

when the path is so covered by huge muddy

puddles, it is difficult to find a clear/clean

spot to navigate towards, and the thought of

playing in the puddles just doesn't resonate

with the space you are currently at.

There are days when the path has huge road blocks to manage your way through or around, or over.

There are times when it is difficult and challenging to journey forward, and memories of the PAST and thoughts of how you {could've} changed something

wags itself like an eager tail, waiting to be noticed and drawn forth, and you get hooked with stuff you thought you had got rid of once and for all,

and so you clear it out AGAIN.

At times it seems as if you are all by yourself

on life's path, and there seems to be no one to journey with. There seems to be no one who could even understand what you are experiencing.

And yes there are moments when you wonder what the point is,

or ~~~if ,it is.

There are times when all around you, you can see patterns repeating themselves, playing out so unconsciously in those folks who walk beside you, and you wonder how, they do not/cannot realize or recognize them, and can continue to be caught in & by them.

There are times when the day to day stuff becomes so annoying, weird, heavy,

{put in your own description} you are challenged

to move forward, and you find yourself cocooned in your bed.

There are days when the physical discomforts of adjusting and integrating the downloads and shifts of energy are so unbearable you wonder why you even stepped on this path.

Or you find yourself eating again, or

the other side of the coin, wondering when was the last time you ate.

There are so many other moments that challenge us, for whatever

the reason may be, as we journey forward,

all of them seeming

to sap us of everything we have.

For those who have been the Light Warriors, Light Workers

you are aware of this I speak.

Some days are a challenge, some days you just want to stop and be {normal} whatever normal is, and then you laugh and realize you never were normal!! :) Yet you carry on, you move forward, for there is a calling deep with-in you

and you know your path.

And then in the midst of it all comes a moment of clarity,

a moment of pure love and light and it lifts you up and beyond all the crud on the path... it is those moments,

bright and shinning in love,

that maintain and sustain you on this journey

ever forward.

Those moments of clear knowing that all is OK!

If it is possible for you to be calm, to come back to center

during those moments that challenge you;

for whatever the reason may be...

To breathe deeply through your heart,

loving light,

it is very possible to release and rise

above all the crud

(and it is mostly all crud.)

The amazing thing in all of this

while you journey on your path;

is you get to choose how you react,

how you respond.

Perhaps, if it is, or has become all to overwhelming...

it is time to give yourself

the gift of a break from it all,

however this may look or feel to you.

Did you ever ask yourself,

if you need to do all the things you do?

Do you know how to be still?

Are you able to connect with

and hear your inner voice/wisdom?

When was the last time you played like a child,

or played with a child, not in necessity, but in delight?

When was the last time you sit outside and listened?

When was the last time you let yourself just be??

The energies truly are shifting, enabling us to be clear in our connection to source and self sustaining, so on a Bright note, all those {upgrades and downloads & energy shifts} will be worth the experience.

We have been preparing for all we were meant to be and all we were meant to live and experience.

The eons of time where we were caught in the density & dross, is being cleared, it is coming to an end, it is crumbling and falling away, so the new can be firmly in place.

we have been a huge part of that clearing and bringing in the light.

Ok~~~ so applaud yourself... go stand in the spot light and the circle of excellence.... you deserve all your wonder and glory!!!

I truly honor and acknowledge all those who walk this path of life. You have my gratitude and sincere appreciation.

Hugs of love, Earthdeva © 2009

as i write this in the wee hours of Sunday morning....
Friday's beautiful full harvest moon is lighting my dining room space.
the full moon energies have been very empowering & assisting me
in accomplishing a somewhat challenging task, & i am nearly there!!
i fell asleep reading, & woke to the light of the moon~~~ 

i have been a bit over taxed w/  the current 'day job'
during the past couple of yrs....long story short....
the company i work for, in a position i always felt
the universe created especially for me, was sold.....
it is still in the midst of transition w/the new owner,
as am i, & i have been challenged to the max in adapting to the new situation,
owner & his business practices, style & manner.
Everything is different.... i have remained because of my loyalties to the company
& for the years i spent helping to build it up to the place it was when it was sold.

with all the transitions in my job & the effects in my personal life the past 2yrs,
my Arborist Certification expired this past June,
because i did not get all my CEUs (continuing education units)
30 total are required in a 3 year cycle...i had 10.
after much ,mental & emotional debate on my part about letting it go or keeping it....
big part of it was not wanting my new boss(who is creating so much grief for me) to control or "own" my certification & use it & not compensate me(long story!!!)
at any rate.. i remembering how hard i had originally worked to receive the Certification & what a huge accomplishment it was for me....i decided to keep it, which meant filing for an extension & explaining my 'story"  i was able to get an extension till 10-28 & even paid extra to get the testing materials delivered early....
& then having them not arriving on time!!! only added to the mental stress   LOL....
so letting go & just trusting!!!!
i finally  received the testing materials & began taking the tests Wed (10-16)
wow!!!  ALL the articles & tests to get the required 20+ CEUs......(ordered a couple extra just in case)
lots of head time!!!! studying & reading & test taking  kinda intense, plus the pressure of the time line!!!
gratefull to have taken enough tests to acquire 20 CEUs at this point,
altho the tests still needed to be sent in & graded to see if i achieve all the credits i need!!
(why i am taking a couple extra just to be sure!! )....
ISA is working with me, even tho the deadline is the 10-28, they have been being great about supporting me!!!! going do this all weekend & hopefully have the 20 CEUs/tests to send overnite on Monday.

and yet at this moment i am reminded there is a time & season for everything...
& change is good, it has all been good;
the learning & remembering & growing & healing to wholeness
through it all, the smooth flows & the chaos & struggle!!!
& coming to a place of recognizing it is time to shift gears & create something new for myself!
& i will be ok, & i trust the universe

Thursday was my beloveds birthday.... we celebrated  that night out on the property by the tipis, under the moon with a big camp fire, several friends & just good enjoyable time!!!  offered me a much needed break in the midst of all the head time!!!!  Friday was the job & more study & test taking   Saturday i got up at 6 & started the studying & testing..... it won't be light for several more hours, yet i am wide awake.... tidying my homespace & doing chores. i have 2 more articles & tests to complete.... it's Sunday.... it's all good, & life is wonderfull!!!

reflecting on all of this, i am gratefull for the choice i made to do what i needed to do to re-instate my Arborist Certification!!! Thankful for the challenges i have put my brain skills through!! I LOVE the trees, & promised them i would be their voice~~  I am totally trusting the universe to create a new position & day job for me!! 
i am ready to create a new story & be off on a new adventure~~
and so it is~~ and so it is~~

warmest loving hugs & brightest blessings~ earthdeva/molly

oh my goodness goodness....
i look at the date of my last entry & it has been awhile!
i really did stepped back & tucked in for a time, & am now finding myself ready to re~emerge;
if even just for a bit.... my life is in the midst of some huge changes.... & i have been taking care of me.
  i went to a retreat on Whidbey Island in mid September, & celebrated Autumn Equinox....for me personally it was a much needed getaway,some alone time, some woman/we~moon time,some personal spiritual time.  i had the opportunity to meet some new friends & wonderful ladies & fellow journeyers on the path of life & i am so very very grateful for these connections, heart & soul!!! Aldermarsh Retreat Center was the perfect space & time & just what my heart & soul was requiring. The time to reflect & remember, to create, & to interact was so very healing for me. Being in nature as much as i am, Aldermarsh was a new earthspace to be present with & experience,explore & totally enjoy!                                           
  On the way home i was momentarily swallowed by a huge dust storm!!;.......which created some interesting events in my life, as well as offering the opportunity to see with clarity in the midst of what may be obvious all around yet unseen (perhaps the effects of allowing a wind summoner to call in the air when opening circle, & an invitation to blowing all the ickies out of my life!!)
  An annual visit from my ~sister sister~  the end of September,was another opportunity for creative expression & enjoyment.... also a recent Full moon gathering with my beautiful daughters circle brought more opportunity to meet new friends & gather with like minded women, & share food i enjoyed making.
  Thru all of this; a healing opportunity to remember so many of the things i love, yet that have been somewhat hidden in my day to day life & my current job, & the realization the job had similarly swallowed me like the dust storm
& so it is....i pick myself up & dust myself off, cleanse my weary self.....the seeds have been sewn, much has been renewed in my life & my being~~ & it is all good.... a new way to observe, a new perspective.... & i am more prepared to journey forward~
looking forward to what it is the universe has to offer me along the path of life~~ 
brightest blessings & warmest loving hugs~ earthdeva/molly